In many ways, they'll miss the good old days someday, someday

A person's a person, no matter how small.

Taken at Davidson. The entire campus was just rather fantastic.

The hardest thing for me to comprehend lately is having such a vivid picture of what I want out of life and then coming to the realization that it might not happen. I want what I want, but it might be selfish to get what I want. I'm always missing the past and asking "why didn't this or why didn't that" as if I should have changed my actions a long time ago. Bummer really. If I did not do something at the time it simply wasn't important enough to me. Rosy retrospection also takes a huge role in my life when I believe that the past was the good old days but really it is only that way because I am told that it should be. What is so wrong with the present that we are encouraged-even brainwashed to look back to the past or have some false hope for the future? Why don't we ever love where we're at? Not that I think we should settle with what we have right now, because we can always improve in whatever aspect of life means the most to us, I just think that I would rather enjoy the journey than struggle until I reach the goal. Whatever that turns out to be. If I don't get my 16 year old desires then I still believe my life will turn out just fine. Things are great and having goals is always helpful. I just don't want to get hung up on silly obsessions for what college or major I decide upon (or more realistically decides upon me.) Here's to appreciating now and being hopeful for the future but not WAITING until happiness knocks us in the stomach. Happiness is difficult to find and even harder to attain so why in the world would you wait for it to come to you?